Today I woke up to the sound of birds outside my window.
I stretched and looked over to see my wife.
Instead I saw nothing but the pillow where she laid her head.
Memories of her came rushing back followed by the realization that she was gone.
I walked outside and sat down in my rocker, now watching the birds that woke me to their song.
I see my children playing in the yard chasing butterflies. Their curly hair blowing in the wind.
But as I watched they began to fade away, along with the birds and their song.
The smile I had while watching my girls started to fade and a chill came over my body.
My head dropped like a weight towards the ground. I noticed there was no breeze, no sounds of any kind.
I stood once again and began to walk inside to the kitchen. I leaned over the sink and turned on the cool water to wash my face.
I tightened my body for the shock of the cold water. But there was none in fact no feeling at all.
I now felt very scared and in wonder of what was happening to me so I rushed to the bed in order to calm myself and to figure out what was happening.
I felt something grasp my hand and I heard someone calling my name.
This time when I opened my eyes I saw a figure that I could only assume was God looking down at me.
I couldn’t move at all, the only thing I could do is utter the word yes.
The figure then spoke to me. My son I love all my children as i know you love yours.
you now lay here broken from the things you have put into your body.
While you slept I gave you visions of a few things you still hold dear to your heart.
I will heal you and give you a second chance BUT hear me when I say, the visions you had were real. And if you do those things again it will be for the last time.
But I will not take the things you love from you, but I’ll take you from them.
This was the day I became clean and sober